So I'm back again now...

Well people, I'm back and still just as stressed as ever. I cant help but wander if I let my house go, be put on the market so that it doesnt show as a foreclosure on my credit-Would things change for the better? Probably not. Well I have really be family sick for some reason lately. I really miss my family. Since my daddy passed 2 years ago, the family just drifted apart and really nobody comunicates anymore other then me, mama, Tee, and Nina. And mama is the only one other than Tee that I talk to regularly. It sucks. And now that I live in BFE 30 minutes away from Easley I really dont see or hear from anyone anymore. I dont hear from mom anymore since she moved in with Dennis in Greenville and that sucks b/c usually she was around every day or at least every other day. I actually like seeing family on a regular basis. Most of the family anyway.
I still havent come to a conclusion yet on going back to school. It still seems to me that we arent going to be able to afford it. So what do I do? Follow my dreams and go back to school like I have been wanting to do?-But if i do that then I am looking at losing the house and putting it on the market for sale and coming up with a solution to keep my child at the same school and come up with a deposit on a rental home. I dont want to let the house go really b/c Eddie and I have put so much into it in the past year and a half. Why cant these things be easier??? I am so stressed out lately that I dont know whether I am coming or going.By the way I now have a myspace page if anyone cares. My user url is www.myspace.com/julie_howe28. If you would like to you can visit there as well. Sorry it has taken me so long to blog but I have been dealing with too much lately and dont hardly even have time to think. And to add to the worry, Justin';s birthday as well as my sister's birthday is Sat. March 22, and I dont have the money for even a birthday card for either one of them. Then we have Easter two weeks early this year which as you know the Easter bunny cant afford 2 easter baskets this year. What to do? What to do?? See drama comes like a downpor for me. When it rains it floods. Let me tell ya. I'm relly beginning to wander if life is really worth all of the drama and confusion if you cant at least be happy? What do yall think? I'll try to take some more pic.s as soon as possible for you guys but to let you know so that I dont get tagged this week- I'm working most of the week this week. That's all for now. See yall later.